Saturday, February 26, 2005
10:11 PM
woke up really early today..830am thats early for me okay..anyway went to Dr loke with my mum..i they asked us to go back in the afternoon..so i had macs with mon and she send me off for tuition..i was falling asleep la..was super tired..tml still gotto go la..cause we couldnt cover everything today..it sucks la..ca is next week..sigh..gotto do well..heard some bad news from jiarui..she over heard leslie telling mr zender that he doesnt want me to run 200m anymore cause i get so tired easily now adays..sigh..i know i've gone done..im a fucking loser now..i dont know why..i dont seem to ba able to run as fast anymore..its like when i run my legs are like going every direction..sigh..this suck i tell you..it really does..i mean..i have a strong feeling i wont be running in anything this year?fuck la okay..fuck..i wana go to the beach..its gona make me feel so much more better..oh well..sigh..okay anyway..joyceh,simone and chess came over to my place to study..studied for awhile and simone got bored..so we went to westmall..haha we kept crapping la..and i kept making simone laugh..she laugh till she had tummy ache and she was like tearing..so funny i tell you..we kept hitting each others boobs..haha and i kept pulling her zip down..LOL!okay im still having my thingie also la..and its damn heavy..LOL!okok i shant be sick..all i can say is that simone and i went crazy la..anyway..after westmall simone and chess headed back to my place and we set at the playground there and talk..we talk alot..and it was windy like there was air-con la..haha anyway..simone left and chess stayed on..she came up to my place and we watched tv and soon she left after bullying me la..hahaha!anyway..feeling kinda tired..so i guess this is it..bye.
"it seems like we're not fated"
Friday, February 25, 2005
11:51 PM
today is one short but really tiring[sp?]day for me..was really dead beat..woke up at 530 and rushed to school cause i too a long time to shower..anyway i was feeling hot so i took a long shower la..haha anyway..yeah today was up in the hall to get my cert and second medal for the standard cart[sp?] thingie..anyway..left class during recess time..DUH..aha okay im lame..chess left at 915 la..and i forgot what i had to tell her for accounts..LOL!okay nvm shall ask my bestie who is also my cousin..cool eh?okay im alil high cause the bimbotic furless hamster is making me laugh alot online..she's just so funny i tell you..okay anyway..back to the topic..yeah left to go to the audi..met sam and nisha they all..i wanted to pee so got sam to follow me..oh no..she was nice and she said she'll follow me..lol okay anyway..went to pee and found out that i was having my thing..haha i found out in a lucky way but i had it at a really unlucky time..firstly cause im wearing whites and secondly i cant have track with something in between..i just hate that feeling i tell you..anyway..i was so piss it came..haha oh and i dont know why..but knowing that my mum was here for the event today made me had butterflys in my tummy..haha im kinda glad and happy she made it la..haha :) and she texted me during class..about what to wear..i kept laughing..ask chess..lol..the first one said this'so what you want me to wear?or you want me naken?'hahaha something like that la..than i started laughing..my mum is crazy la..oh well..eveyone said i walk very funny..i dont care..i hate my black court shoes..they bit me..they give me blisters..anyway..for track..we pretty much did the same thing..i slept in the bus ride there..and leslie hit me with a book to wake me up and it gave me a shock la..nearly fell off the chair..haha whatever..lucky i didnt..he would have been laughing like hell la..and he was trying to wake cass up so he was like'aye!got fire!'haha and cass was like..huh!where?!hahahha!i couldnt stop laughing i tell you..she was SO blur la..hahaha okay track had to end early cause some school booked nie at 5..went to my mum's place and was talking to paul..haha he keep making fun of me la..haha whatever..anyway i had ice-cream again..the last time i had triple chocolate which was GREAT!haha today i had some berry one la..haha it's damn ex so its a treat to me..haha and mum even bought two small tups[sp?]for me..:D okay..we cleaned the house..damn tired now..so i guess this is it..cheers!
[to chess!]
"hey cheer up alright??i know your feeling horrible..but do know that we're all here..anything im just a call away..i'll try to help you in whatever way i can..:)love you!!:)"
Thursday, February 24, 2005
9:35 PM
okay today wasnt too bad..ah chu didnt accept my work..like whatever la..so have to come online to do..haha anyway..left school early with val to go ijtp invest..it wasnt too bad but it was freaking hot and i had to put on that stupid blazer..okay val thinks that this girl likes me la cause she kept talking to me..like whatever okay anyway..the school isnt too bad la..it was okay overall..had to rush home and get ready for tuition..had tuition and it was damn funny la..my tuition buddies and i..we went alil mad..esp mel..anyway..im super tired okay..dead beat again..cant wait for tml la..haha okay i cant think of anything to say..so..loves
"three words..i miss you"
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
8:14 PM
okay lets see..i woke up at 530am today..went to school on my own..slept early last night but thanks to mum and dad talking outside my room they woke me up from my beauty sleep..anyway..i fell asleep during geog..it was super boring i tell you..and the way i fell asleep just made chess and ailin laugh like hell la..we were asked to copy some stuff and i hold the pencil in my hand..and i just started falling asleep..and my head just drop on the table and ms seah walked arounf but she thought i was copying just that i was taking a break at that moment..hahaha i couldnt stop laughing la when chess told me..okay anyway..i was bullied by had,joyceh and chess..they were trying to hit my boobs and bottom and butt..so mean right??haha but i fight back..all by myself..but joyceh attack damn strong la..haha she squeeze and all..but im better!:) haha okay my cousin and i are just pure sick la..okay..had training at nie today..i love nie..but..this time..its different..there were only the sec 3s..so sad..i miss the times when everyone was there..i dont know why they must spilt the whole team up..oh well..i hope they get us back as one team again..or the whole track team is gona be in groups..that isnt nice..okay..training was painful and kinda tough..we did 2 sets of 4 of fartleg[sp???]okay we did that..we ran round the track a total of 8times and at every str8 we stride and later we changed..it was kinda tough cause we were all having really bad muscle aches which hurt like fuck shit i tell you..haha okok im dead beat..you girls take care..loves
Monday, February 21, 2005
8:25 PM
i kinda pulled my hamstring[sp?]..thanks alot man..yes he did kinda scolded me..oh well..im use to it..whatever..cheers.
"missing you cuts like a knife"
Saturday, February 19, 2005
11:41 PM
got home at around 11?yeah went for yimei's party and it wasnt too bad..haha i didnt expect to see some people there..like chu ying,dee and krystal lim..anyway..met chelsy before going to get yimei's present..yes i know im damn last min la..haha anyway..met dee,krystal lim and yimei at tbp..krystal was feeling hot so she drag me into the shoopping center..we walked around and soon i head to yimei's place with her..we talked quiet alot..haha anyway..it was a really short but hot walk..and we both were wearing black..haha anyway..we were all rotting alot and talking rubbish while yimei was getting ready..haha i kinda pity her cause none of us wanted to help la..haha anyway i kept going up and down her house la..haha cause she kept forgetting to take her stuff..its damn funny la..and esp the lizard thingie..they were all so scared of the lizard la..i couldnt help but laugh..yimei also had a couisn who called me kor kor..they made him call me that la..he even called me daddy..haha his cute but he have a very dao face la..haha and i was teaching him how to say happy meal..damn funny..anyway they played water bomb and krystal and i hide and run where ever and anywhere we can go..so we both didnt get wet..i left for home with krystal later on at around 1015..we cab to her place and i dropped her off than i cab back..and i came online..tml i shall spend my day with my dear mother..anyway..guess this is all..you girls take care..loves!
12:30 PM
woke up at 12..slept really late cause was thinking alot..i woke up cause coffee was rubbing her head on my arm trying to wake me up..that silly girl..i just love her la..she's so cute..she didnt dare go down my platform[sp?]so she ended up pee-ing there..i was really piss cause i had to get up from my beauty sleep to clean her mess up..anyway..my sun burn hurts this time round..damn painful..gona have to clean the house later cause tml i got tuition..oh well..cheers people.
"what if i cant?than wouldnt i be letting myself down?
Friday, February 18, 2005
10:56 PM
today was funsplash..was under the sun the whole day from the time i got there till the thing ended..yes im red again..haha that means i'll be darker!:) okay..today was overall okay..it started out fine..but towards the last few events i had a really bad headache cause there were alot of people screaming their damn lungs out into my ears..i dont blame them la..but it gave me a really bad headache..i felt so bad cause i kinda raise my voice at sarah cause she scream into my ear..oh and jo too..sorry..you girls thought i was feeling shity..but it was cause i was having headache la..anyway..it suddenly started to rain and i go all wet..from head to toe..was in out in the rain picking up the rubbish the girls left behide with debbie..i didnt help my house out at all..was walking around and mostly looking around..jess came at the wrong time la..didnt get to to her at all..:( i miss her!!that mommy of mine..always forever so busy..oh well..when back to school to help unload the stuff and the bus took a REALLY long way i tell you..i was so bloody tired and cold cause i was all wet..jo and i were like shaking..jo better not be sick..she was sneezing..poor girl..anyway..i doubt i'll be sick..haha okay anyway..cheryl was suppose to have dinner with me but changed her mind..so she went home and i headed home too..so i came home cooked noodles to eat..i had gastric but after so long i wasnt hungry so didnt eat much..anyway..kinda feeling alil shity now..oh well..nothing much to say anymore..loves..cheers people!
"bitter sweet symphony"
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
4:38 PM
today was okay i guess??training yesterday made my knees get all jelly and all..haha anyway there's stupid house practice tml and i dont feel like going for it..i wana go for training..but leslie wants us to go for house practice cause friday is the fun splash thingie..oh well..today was fairly okay la..like i said..haha just had someone in my head all day long and was falling asleep alot..had 3 class test today..haha wrote alot of crap..haha gona get crap marks again..oh well hope i pass!hahaha:)))))thats all i guess?cheers!
"your too good to be true"
Sunday, February 13, 2005
12:23 AM
today had tuition..from 11am changed to 2pm..than changed to 3..haha was late as usual..ahha did bio,chem and maths..ahha was close to death cause it was bloody hot..anyway..was suppose to end at 430..but ended up leaving only at 5..argh..hate it..the stupid network suck too..i seem to get msges really late..was so damn pissed i tell you..haha anyway..headed down to town to meet jo..was suppose to meet ailin maryanne and ravinder..but they werent staying long so decided to meet em some other time..met jo and we walked around..had to look for the soft toy elmo..haha chess thought i meant elmo as in emila[sp?]oh well..met up with char after that cause she was alot after her fren had to go..we walked around looking for elmo..i felt so bad cause i made em walk SO much..thanks you two!!haha anyway bumped into simone and frens and soon after simone joined us..jo went off to meet cor..we walked around and bumped into chess and natt mommy!hahaha anyway headed home at around 1030..really late..haha got home at 1115..haha showered and came online..guess this is all i have to say..i miss marilyn..oh well..you girls take care..hugs..cheers!
"i"ll take care of you if you let me":)
Thursday, February 10, 2005
10:58 AM
woke up early today..going over to my granny's place soon..not feeling really high or anything though..i wana go to the beach..i wana watch the sunset..oh well..there's nothing much i can say..okay..cheers..
i've been stuck on this song:
Almost here-brain and delta
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
10:30 PM
mabelina cheah
A very special Arian
mabelina cheah is an energetic Aries with an irrepressible zest for life. When you need a problem solving or a decision making, mabelina cheah is the ideal candidate for the job. If you are ever worried about how to handle something - or you need someone you can absolutely rely on - mabelina will be the first to stride forward boldly declaring "Don't worry we'll soon sort THIS out."
And, what's more, she will.
mabelina cheah is not the kind of person to issuean empty promise. What mabelina says mabelina does - regardless of the consequences! That's part of the trouble. mabelina just doesn't know how to play the game of 'consequences'. She likes to live for the moment. She likes to throw herself passionately into whatever she happens to be feeling, thinking (or lusting after) right here right now. That's why mabelina usually ends up getting whatever she wants. That's also why, regardless of what she gets, she always ends up wanting something else!
It is not that mabelina is fickle, more that she is fast. Fast on the uptake, fast on the trigger, fast on her feet and fast with her thoughts. She may give you the impression of being calm, and measured but inside her head, there's a state of the art computer, processing information at the speed of light. Her ideas are not the only things that can come and go in a hurry. Sometimes mabelina's moods are just as mercurial. One moment she is secretly seething, the next; perfectly poised. You can usually tell though - because mabelina rarely hides her feelings.
You can't help loving mabelina cheah because no matter what she does or what she says you know that she has a heart as big as a mountain.
9:43 PM
today was okay i guess?but have been alil clumsy..kept bumping into things..the whole family woke up at god knows what time and i woke up at 1pm..yes im a pig i tell you..haha my mum was like'do you wana wake up?your the only one left..'haha so i had no choice but to get out of bed..came home only at 3plus am yesterday cause i followed my mum,dad,granny and uncle to the temple and up till now i still cant figure out why the hell did i even agree to go..we left the house at 130am it wasnt really quiet cause alot of people wew going to temples too..anyway i was dead tired..took a nap after we got home from my dad's mum place..i've yet to collect more red packets tml..:) it's wed today..two more days till marilyn is flying back to nz..:( oh well i dont wana be mushy to her..but im sure gona miss her..it's gona be weird..no more sister around:(it's gona be hard..i think i may cry again at the airport..but i'll control haha i think she'll cry too..haha okay im mean..oh well..sigh things will be so different without a sister back here..i really miss the days when i had the both of them around..melissa and marilyn..i remember when i was in nz..the three of us went out together..i really enjoyed those time..sigh..maybe i'll go there end of this year again..but i dont wana get those rash again..okay whatever..oh and i have a change of plans..hahaha im not drying of firday anymore..i'll just die when coffee goes.....cause..i kept telling my mum..the day coffee die is the day i'll die too..maybe i'll meet with an accident..that makes things easier..but my lil baby will never leave me alright!okay enough..she's growing older..and with all her sickness..it just hurts me everytime i see her..she was the only one there for me the night i cried..she was licking my tears..haha that silly thing..okay enough said..loves..
"i miss you alot"
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
3:23 PM
i hate my mum..she have never made me cry so much in my life..i hate her..all i had in my head last night was 'i hate you'i cried to sleep..it sucked..cause i was really hot and i had a real bad headache..no one was there..oh well..whatever..i needed a hug badly..thank god i saw jess today!!i hugged her real tight..just what i needed:) i missed her too okay!haha its been a long time since i last saw her..today kinda suck?i dont know..to me now everything sucks at the moment..when i cried last night..they played welcome to my life..mann i felt alone..oh..wait..i am alonewhatever..marilyn is flying off this friday..i shall kill myself that very night..so i can leave this world and i'll never be alone..maybe i'll bring coffee along..oh well..whatever..cheers people..
"i wana be the one who loves you take care of you..but..it is possible?"
Monday, February 07, 2005
9:08 PM
todaywasnt too bad..okay maybe it was kinda bad?i dont know la..whatever..okay i think it's the monday blues..woke up got ready for school..mum was going to the market with granny today..so granny went to school with me..in the car duh..lesson was alil boring and i was feeling feverish..so i fell asleep and got scolded by mr seow..i nearly shouted fuck off..but i control..told him i wasnt feeling well then he ask me go to the damn office and i said no thanks just leave me alone and i'll be fine..so he walked away..it shocked me most when it came to recess cause its the first time i didnt feel like eating anything and worst part is..i didnt feel like eating at all..weird eh..stupid ailin is still on holiday..cant wait for her to come back..she'll drive me crazy:) oh well..stayed back and sit in for track..was doing ss..finished and walked sihui down to the bus stop and got a taxi for her..am i nice or am i nice?ahha oh well..walked back to school with juli and we talked alil..was back to the canteen and it was time to go vist the old folks..went with dee and ra and karen..it wasnt too bad..but it was bloody hot and we all kept complaining..mostly me..haha and i was like..yes i know im a tracker but i dont wear such thick clothes to walk under the bloody hot sun..but anyway..haha we walked back to school and they brought drinks and i just stole alil from dee..haha:)got back to school and saw joyceh and sam they finish dance already so we headed home togther..but i wasnt heading home..went to tbp market to meet my mum and dad and granny..had a drink while they eat and they sent me home first..kinda and a fight with my mum in the car..i was fucking piss..so piss i was about to kill her..anyway..she was shouting at me about tml..i fucking hell told her i maybe going to pri school and she was like you didnt!you didnt!all the fuck shit she could say was you didnt..just fuck off!i was so piss..she was like so what time you gona be back..than i said im not sure cause marilyn my sis wana go catch a show..and that bitch was like no you come home and help me you both have to help me this help me that..all the fuck crap la..i was so fucking piss i tell you..then my granny was like you sending mabel home first?and my mum was like yes and my granny asked she dont need to take dinner?and my mum was like..take what dinner?she lives with her phone..in other words she's trying to say i eat my phone to stay alive..she can go and die for all i fuck hell care..oh well..came home and blust[sp?] the sound suround[sp?]i on the music really loudly..i love to do that when im piss..and i was alone anyway..i still am alone..oh well..whatever..i have nothing to say about that shit..sorry i know im alil or rather really rude in this entry and yes..after all she's my mum..i love her and respect her but sometimes..she's just too much..duh..her baby is leaving soon..oh well..whatever la..okay..leave me..cheers.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
6:22 PM
clean the house today..i showered coffee..feeling a lil tired cause i think im down with a flu..i think i have not been having enough sleep..kept sneezing since i woke up..it was bad okay..now one nose of mine is stuck..i hate it when my nose gets blocked..:( tml is back to school..i dont even know if im looking forward to it?haha oh well..whatever..may not go for track tml..shall see how..okay..nothing to block about anymore..cheers people
Saturday, February 05, 2005
8:20 PM
today was it..oh well..still feeling pretty much the same..dont ask if you dont know much about it..sorry to those people who i've been telling you to leave me alone as i didnt feel like talking..i'll talk to you girls when i feel better..sigh..nothing to blog about..my sun burn hurts la..hah okay but i like it..cheers people
"thats it?i guess so.."
Friday, February 04, 2005
9:52 PM
had swimming heats today..it was good..im as red as tomato now thank you very much..im super happy..but my whole body feels hot..im not really in the best mood..oh well..whatever..i just feel so fucked up..so yeah..leave me..bye
Green day-Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
8:26 PM
my hip hurts..cause someone hit it..but by accident..haha and it's my twin who did it la..okay im just trying to make you feel bad..and i know you already do..but it's okay la..the pain will go soon i hope..today was overall not too bad..okay..actually..it was kinda bad?haha anyway..school ended fast and me,joyceh and chess went to watch the tennis girls and netball girls..haha yes yes i dragged em there..cause i didnt want to go alone la..shy la..hahaha okay the tennis girls are playing with ijtp tml..i wana go!!!but i have track:((((((((im so sad okay..i really wana go..:( oh well..sigh..tml got track..i think it's gona be at some stadium?i dont know..i wana get those sprinter spike shoes i tell you!!they are GREAT..but girly..ahha but i may get the new ones next year..not this year..this year i wana get the track shoes to correct my walking..i have some problem..i walk v-shape..it affects my running and to tell you the truth..im kinda disppointed..and joyceh and chess was teasing me liek nothing today..it did kinda get me upset but it's okay..anyway..i dont really have much to say anymore..so you girls take care..loves..
Delta goodrem ft Bian macfadden-almost here
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
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